Diario di cerobit, 24 lug 18

Perhaps with proper care and medication, things will come together.  

She’s back to batshiat crazy. Staff complaining. Hopefully this leads to my nephew attaining guardianship. He and his mom live there so time will tell. 

My sympathies, Cerobit. I know something of what you're going through. My sister is bipolar, self-medicating with alcohol -- and cocaine and marijuana at times. It's impossible to predict her behavior, and her anger is explosive. Her two failed marriages and other relationships were marked by physical violence, both to and from her. She even assaulted me during an argument. Despite working full time, she constantly tries to get money from her adult children, siblings, and friends. Her lies, continued verbal abuse, and manipulation caused so much pain and resentment that, 10 years ago, I made the decision to not pursue an active relationship with her. I'm surprised she still alive at 62, what with all the risks she's taken over the years. 

Thanks. I’m working through it. The self fears that I may have the familial traits PLUS my. Already nutso-ness from brain radiotherapy is now part of my awareness rituals. Oh well. 

That is good news about your mum, Cerobit. I understand the difficulties in your situation as well. I've a history of dementia and seizures in my family and the fear I might inherit it is always there. The thing is, I'm able, due to all the new nutritional information out there, to do something about it by kicking out all the sugar and wheat in my diet. But the bottom line is, I need to focus on the positive and enjoy. Please don't feel guilty about not being able to connect with your mum now; she is being cared for. You need to take the same good care of yourself, which I'm sure you are doing. The human brain is phenomenal, and just like the rest of your body can heal itself to an amazing degree. Believe this! 

Sorry, I didn't read your second post before I posted my comments. But whatever; your mum has her own journey and you have yours.