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So I weighed myself last Tuesday but I just recorded it today. Anyway, I only lost ONE POUND last week. I can't believe it. I worked so hard. I guess I'll just have to keep trying. Also, I'm thinking about going as low as 125, but I want to wait until I get to 130 first to see if I'm happy with where I'm at. I don't want to go too overboard but I do want to be "fit" not just healthy. My mom and my best friend think that 125 is going overboard, but I'm 5'6" and I think I have a thin frame because right now I'm a size 12 and I weigh 139 and I'm really not happy with being a size 12. Also, I think I've been trying to lose weight for so long now that I don't really know how to stop, or what to do with myself once I stop. It's weird because I really want to stop and I can't wait until I reach my goal, but there's some kind of security and and calming effect that losing weight has on me. I wouldn't call it an addiction, more of an attachment. But at the same time, I feel restricted and bound by it - like I can't enjoy life if I'm constantly worried about getting to the gym or not eating this or not indulging in that. I think 130 lbs just needs to get here already :\
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