Diario di madaboutmoose, 26 ago 10

Thursday has arrived in all its glory!! Yesterday turned out to be a warm day but later this afternoon the winds are supposed to kick up and the temperatures begin to drop. Tomorrow a high in the 60's is predicted. Seems a little early for fall but whatever!! My plan is to go with the flow!!

Yesterday we had a truck load of logs delivered!! We are sharing them with a co-worker of Bob's. We'll be busy, as soon as the weather cools, cutting them into rounds and then hopefully renting a log splitter so we can split them without Bob having a heart attack!!! We should get quite a few cords of wood out of this load. It is a combination of birch and tamarack for those of you who know your wood!! LOL!!

My adjustment in attitude towards my journey appears to be going well. I revised my bio ... to reflect where I am NOW instead of where I began. I am consciously basking in the reality that I have been maintaining, more or less, for well over a year. It is amazing how powerful that is for me. Such a different mindset than thinking ... "I still need to lose more." I may indeed lose more. However, the joy is in the journey NOT the destination. The journey changes over time in small ways. There are different things to gaze at, at different times in the journey.

I continue to practice kindness and gratefulness ...

Today I am grateful for ...

1. the variety of buddies I have here ... each in a different stage of their respective journeys ... I learn so much from each one ... their willingness to share their thoughts supports my ability to reflect on my own thoughts.

2. a slight weight being lifted from my shoulders recently that has given me more room to breathe in and out with less anxiety.

3. the fun of looking forward to a get-away weekend with my husband at the end of September/beginning of October where we will be celebrating 23 years since our first meeting (we met through a personal ad I placed in a free newspaper 23 years ago!!!).

4. the relationship my dearest girlfriend and I have forged over the years ... we too have been 'together' for more than 20 years and I am continuously awed by the love we have for each other.

5. the possibility of taking a vacation day tomorrow and this being the end of my work week!!!

Time to shower and get myself ready for the day. I am looking forward to it actually. I know I complain sometimes about my job but really ... it is a great job and I love most of what I do. It suits me. Next month I will have been there for 4 years!! It has been a quick 4 years ... I am also grateful for that.

Please join me in continuing to be kind to ourselves. I cannot express how powerful this practice is. While counting calories and moving my body has created the physical changes it is the self-acceptance and working on changing how I treat myself with my own thoughts that has provided the foundation for how I 'feel' about me. My 'fat' eyes still see what I wish were different in my body. I am not always 'up' nor am I always 'positive' or 'happy.' What is different is that I am better able to be in THIS moment and be kind to myself, be content, be grateful, be able to catch my 'negative' thoughts and reframe them to something less toxic. I truly believe these things are essential in maintaining a healthy relationship with my whole self. I am a work in progress ... and that is just fine with me!!! Well, at least most days!! LOL!!! Thank you for journeying along with me. Each of you are such an important part of this process for me, those of you who have been here for a while ... and those of you who have only recently joined. Have a wonderful day!! Be good to YOU!!! Practice kindness, patience, and never, never, never, never give up on yourself regardless of the scale, plateaus, 'bad' days, or 'advice' that someone else gives you!!!

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