I still feel unhappy... At work it's going crazy, lots of things to do. I hope I can have holidays in a few weeks. Weight it's going crazy: I gained so much within a few days. On Sunday I was shocked, my scale said 64.5kg. Damn. That's exactly what happened after my mom died... Sudden gain of weight, feeling deeply unhappy, feeling lost. I am trying to reduce calories and especially the not so healthy stuff I eatlately. Replaced them with more fruit and more bread (to make my stipomach feel full with less calories). I see some good signs, though. Yesterday I went climbing with people from the climbing classes. Well, they have a different attitude, and it helped me a lot to feel again the fun part of it, the challenge, all those positive emotions of accomplishment and joy that come out of climbing. For a while, climbing was a kind of duty or anyway, not fun anymore. Also my new job, does not feel liket fun anymore. I want to have back the feeling of having fun while I do things I have chosen and I know I used to like.
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