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I ate WAY too much at seder last night. Been feeling more emotionally unhinged. Not sure if that's really new or if it just feels new because I was more oblivious before. And as to what that indicates I don't even know, good or bad. Despite how I feel less "together" I feel things are improving. I'm failing regularly. I'm being perfectly flawed, but I'm learning to see and rely on G-d more so it's well with me. I really feel crazy, but the more I look at things I realize I'm actually normal and healthy so I don't quite know what to think. I guess I have a love/hate relationship with my sanity. I wish it felt easier, but I know life doesn't work like that. Things are actually getting better and am glad of it, even if it's doesn't necessarily feel pleasant some moments.
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