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So much like my last post, lately I've been feeling like crap, what. a. surprise. It's a combination of things, some that are in my control and some out of my control. My schedule still hasn't gotten any better, in fact it seems like it's been getting busier; my calenders practically full with red circles, marking dates for finals/papers/projects that are coming up or due. It sucks to be me I guess. I was once talking to a friend and we both agree that dieting is a full time job and if you can't keep up then you inevitably lose track and eventually get your ass kicked.
I have somewhat gotten better in the mornings with the right food and I've tried portioning the bad food so it won't be as bad but that hasn't helped my weight as you can see from my weight chart. What a shock huh? In my last post I received some advice on how to handle the pressure of a full time schedule and I appreciate the many useful tips and advice you've all given me. However I have tried them all and they all work for the first week then I get behind once more.
So here I am again, talking about how much I suck, which I really do. lol. One positive thing is that these last few months have really made me angry and very disappointed. I promised myself that this wouldn't happen, that I'd always figure something out and here I am still at 166, which isn't any better than 171 (my beginning weight). So I've sworn that once my last final is over and I drive back home, I WILL stop by the YMCA and sign up for summer membership. I've also made a contract with my boyfriend (yeah a real written up contract, signed and everything) that we will go together three times a week and on hikes with our dogs twice a week. And if we don't there will be penalties.
I know what your thinking... that this girl is reaching for way too much but you know what, two years ago two hours at the gym was a daily routine for me I pushed myself to go every single day. Which in retrospect might have been a little excessive but still the feeling was GREAT. I want that back. I REFUSE to go back to 171 and refuse to let this happen.
Viva la revolution!
LOL, it felt like a moment to add that. Good luck to you!
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