Diario di hollywoodoregon, 15 mag 20

back on it. again. it's depressing to be in this fight but the alternative is to do nothing and feel crappy and/or keep gaining. around 225 is definitely my "i feel horrible" weight... i have trouble picking clothes and just being comfortable in my body. i feel so good even 15 or 10 lb less so i need to focus on that. it sucks being able to seemingly put on weight SO quickly. it is depressing to feel like i will be struggling with this forever and it will constantly be a battle with myself. but, i need to realize that most people do have to be mindful of what they eat - not very many people are "naturally thin"... it helps to think of that some.

my new challenge is doing calorie counting and healthy eating with my boyfriend around almost every night. he works an active job and is a runner so he can eat SO much more than me and not gain - i eat like that and it is bad news. he wants to support me however he can. he also works very early so our eating times are usually off. for instance, he will come over after work around 3-4pm and be very hungry and need a snack - as soon as i see him snacking it gets my appetite going so i have asked that he snack before he comes over and he's trying that. when i was single i would make meals and portion them out so i knew how to track them and that worked for me. it's a little different now since he is around and might eat more than me so then my portions would be off when putting in my tracker. this week i tried pre portioning out some vegan cheese sauce i made and it worked good. i just made the recipe then portioned it out into glass jars - 4 servings so i knew what i would be intaking. then we had the cheese with pasta and broccoli and i measured out a moderate serving of pasta and loaded up on the broccoli so it didn't blow my calories. then he just had whatever pasta and broccoli he wanted (more pasta than me). the single ingredients i can easily weight out as i make my bowl so that worked pretty well. i just need to keep being diligent about everything and try to find creative ways to keep the cals in check. i know i can do it if i try hard enough.

100,8 kg Perso fino ad ora: 7,1 kg.    Rimanenti: 10,1 kg.    Dieta seguita: 100%.

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1630 kcal

Gras: 59,87g | Prot: 43,36g | Carb: 223,55g.   Colazione: Coffee, Silk Vanilla Almond Creamer. Pranzo: Chipotle Mexican Grill Tortilla, Chipotle Mexican Grill Guacamole (3.5 oz), Chipotle Mexican Grill Fresh Tomato Salsa, Chipotle Mexican Grill Lettuce, Chipotle Mexican Grill Corn Salsa, Chipotle Mexican Grill Fajita Vegetables, Chipotle Mexican Grill Cilantro-Lime Rice, Chipotle Mexican Grill Black Beans. Cena: Trader Joe's Raw Whole Cashews, La Costena Pickled Carrots Sliced, Great Value Garbanzo Beans, Lettuce, Cherry Tomatoes, Avocados . Snacks/Altro: Bananas, Brew Dr. Kombucha Superberry. Di più...

3184 kcal

Esercizio: Giardinaggio - 2 ore, Lavoro d'ufficio - 1 ora, Stretching (yoga) - 15 minuti, Riposare - 12 ore e 45 minuti, Dormire - 8 ore. Di più...