having not weighed in for 329 days, I finally got the nerve to step back on the scale, almost a year ago I was down to 152.6, having lost 22 lbs. i was feeling fabulous, and proud of myself! then suddenly fear crept in, what would happen if I reached my goal? what would I expect from myself, what would my family expect from me? I found myself cheating myself, telling myself I would do better later that day, better tomorrow. I would run tomorrow, I was too tired today, I was telling myself lies, because I didn't do better, I was still cheating myself, so today, with heart pounding, with that crappy scale anxiety trying to take over, I stepped on the scale, I could tell in my heart I had gained some weight back, but I was denying just how much weight, was it water, blah, blah, blah, no it was FAT, I today, stepped on the scale and weighed 159.6! UGH. so today, I am going to recommit to my weight loss journey, no matter WHAT, I deserve to be good to myself, I refuse to beat myself up, and I refuse to keep up the self lies, because in the end, it only affects me, myself. The only limits I have, are the one's I set myself. you are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices. Today I am going to love myself. the secret to change is to focus all of your energy, not on fighting the old, but on building the new!!!
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