I'm looking at the abuse I am putting my body through due to all of this weight gain, and it makes me sad. For the most part I have always been healthy and active. My greatest accomplishment was completing my first marathon in April of 2009. I have never felt more pride in a physical challenge! BUT, I did it at a weight that gave my knees a beating. I weighted about 137 lbs when I ran it. I don't know why I didn't drop more pounds while training for the marathon. Every Saturday I had a long run and that burned more calories than I could replace in a day!!!
I can't keep looking at old photos and "wishing" I still looked good in my clothing and in my skin! ~ All I can do is reach for my healthy self that is some place under all this FAT!!!

I work in a field that requires me to wear a uniform and a duty belt with a side-arm. My duty belt is so tight I can hardly stand it. I REFUSE to buy a bigger size so i have no other choice but to lose the big belly!
My kids are supportive but keep telling me I look "fine"! It's not fine when their mom can't keep up on the physical playing or anything that requires "wind"! I realized how out of shape I was when I was teaching my 4 year old how to ride his bike. I would hold onto it and run along holding the back of the seat. I could barely breathe when we were done, and he wanted to keep going but his mom needed to "catch her breath"! That was a huge factor in my newfound motivation to lose weight.

This is the time to take my health seriously! No more "junk nights"! It's such a waste to eat a bunch of "goodies" to entertain ones self!

Thanks for letting me share!